Monday, April 6, 2009

My kids are driving me to the brink

Isn't that the saying of all mothers? Their kids are driving them to the brink of insanity?! Mine have been especially annoying and just pushing the limits and my buttons lately.

I finally made a doctor's appointment. After my husband and brother both threatened to call for me. When your older brother threatens to drive up from Mississippi and hogtie you and force you to go, you kinda give in.
The problem is I don't feel like I need to go. I don't have a cough, the sniffles, or a fever. I just have been feeling like blah lately. My back and shoulders ache. I feel like I ran a marathon and got hit by a Mack truck while doing it. I ache all over, plus the migraine headaches I used to get only once in a while have been hitting me 3 to 4 times a week now. I sleep 8 hours a night but wake up feeling like I haven't slept a bit. I think my husband has been getting tired of hearing me say I'm exhausted at 6PM every night. Plus I feel like I am wound as tight as a rubber band.

This is why I don't want to go to the doctor. I feel like I will just be wasting their time. That I will be just complaining about things that don't make much sense. How can I be exhausted when I don't work outside the home, my kids are in school all day? I just don't want to be seen as one of those complainer patients. The ones who come in with this laundry list of aliments that don't make sense or the ones who just want that drug fix. That is just not me.

I have a hard time with doctors because of my genetic condition. NF type 1 (neurofibromatosis). It is a very hard condition to explain and very few doctors know anything about it. It affects the nervous system and causes nerve tissues to grow tumors on the skin. Most of the time I have to explain to the nurse or doctor what it is. Even I don't know that much about it.

I just hate feeling like crap all the time. It is so against my nature. So wish me good luck at the doctor and hopefully they will be able to tell me what in the heck is going on with me.


B said...

Hi, thanks for stopping by my place. Your blog is so pretty! I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling great; I'm coming down with something too. So, weird same symptoms; achy shoulders and neck BANGING headache...blurgggh. Hope you feel better soon. B

Debbie said...

I just stopped by from SITS to say hi.
I hope the visit goes well. Seems like it would be very worthwhile for you to establish a relationship with a doctor who would understand your condition and help you with whatever else came up. Good luck!

Lynnette Labelle said...

I think it's that time of year. My kids have been testing me a lot lately. We still have a lot of snow on the ground, so that doesn't help matters either. Normally, we can see grass this time of year.

Lynnette Labelle